Feeling judged by others and not being able to speak our truth

What strongly has been coming up for me the past two days is judgement.
It prevents us from fully stepping in our power and speaking our truth. It blocks our voice because we are paralyzed with fear on the inside. We know how others can judge and it makes us feel small and insignificant. We feel ashamed and already wrong before we even expressed ourselves. We are afraid to share our thoughts and feelings publicly and to strangers because we think we will be rejected and attacked for sharing our truth.
When I share my posts I usually get positive responses but sometimes people get triggered by them and jump to conclusions. Yes, even in positive posts people can find something that is speaking to their own pain.
If you feel this way then I want you to know that what you feel is also from past lives where you have been burnt at the stake for being one with nature, killed for being honest, stoned for being a woman, punished for begging for food, silenced for voicing your opinion.
We all carry the codes of humanity in us and we all feel judgement because it is in our cells and passed down to us from our ancestors. The main reason why people feel like they can judge others is because they judge themselves and are too hard on themselves: not feeling worthy enough, not smart enough, not strong enough, not rich enough, not significant enough… Plenty of reasons to not like ourselves and judge ourselves in a such a hard way that we project it onto others.
When people are mean to you and tell you everything you are not then it is THEIR perception and THEIR vision of what you trigger in them. You are a catalyst, you are a teacher to them and what you need to do is stay in your space and let them have their own experience. Kindly send back their energy and focus on your own truth and your own light. Even if it does not resonate with others it is still true and meaningful because what you feel is valid.
This is a lesson for us all: staying in our own light even if we feel judged or attacked. Focus back on our our heart and stay in a compassionate and loving space for ourselves so we can feel this for the ones that we have triggered. It takes practice and we will get triggered to help us be reminded we need to set our boundaries and keep believing that what we have to say and express is in fact just as true as anyone else’s truth.
Be aware of what is your energy and what is somebody else’s and send back their energy with love, compassion and understanding. Let your own truth be a reflection and expression of who you are and love yourself so much that you can rise above the judgement that others are projecting on to you.

I am facing this myself and learning how to speak what I feel despite what others think. Everyone has the right to be in their truth but I have come to understand it is not necessary to agree or to have a discussion and make others understand my truth. Whereas before I would engage and explain what I mean I now see that it is all right to have different opinions and not to understand me. It is all right to be me and it is all right to be you.

I love you all for who you are, even if you trigger me and bring up my own pain. You are my teachers and I value your truth. ❤️

A time to celebrate: rapid changes and rebirth

A new commissioned twinflame drawing that I am sharing with approval from a soul sister. ❤️

“Dear ones. These are the times to celebrate. This year is of new beginnings, the new you, the new world, your new perspective on who you are and who you have come to be. These are the times of rapid changes, things are moving like they have never before and you are in the midst of an exciting adventure. Know that when things seem to be at it worst it is going to be rewarded as you have never imagined before. Your pain and your tears haven’t been for nothing. You are all being birthed into a new world with a new awareness and into a new you. You are taking of the old and the worn off. It can hurt departing with what has been comfortable and familiar but this isn’t how it is always going to be. The most painful is now over! What is to come is yet a discovery for you but one which is full with wonders! You will receive personal information that will help you move forward and grow in the direction you require to be. You set out this plan for yourself and your full awakening will be worth what you are experiencing right now. Do not be stuck in the moment because you cannot foresee what your future holds and because you do not know which step you need to take next. Dear ones, you are exactly where you need to be right now. Look at yourself 6 months ago, can you not see how much you have grown in this short time? Do you not believe that in the next few months you will experience twice as much as you did last year? You are not aware of the movement the energy is making within you and what an impact your presence is making in this world. The slightest change in you affects the collective and when one of you heals all of you feel the effects of this. So hooray for those who are releasing and healing because you are helping the rest of the world with your dedication and love. You affect those that are not awakened simply by being you. By resting, meditating, singing, dancing, relaxing, even crying and allowing yourself to feel what is coming to surface you are changing the energy all around you. So do not underestimate your presence here on earth. You are doing the work without having to physically make an effort. You do not need to push yourself, you do not need to worry you are not where you need to be, you can take a deep breath in and out and know that you are doing important work for the collective as you are growing inside and expanding your awareness which all of the world can benefit from. Let go, dear ones, let go of the pressure you give yourself as we see you struggle and being dissatisfied with your own progress. Your progress is as it should be. Trust and let go. Relax and trust your spirit guide team to lead you where you need to go. Above all: trust yourself and your process. You are changing the world, be aware of this, dear ones, as this mission is one of your greatest.”

Archangel Azrael is here to help us with our transformation

We are going through some heavy releases and we are being healed and upgraded into a better version of ourselves. One where we are more our higher self and can live in our authenticity without having the fear of showing ourselves anymore. This is a message from AA Azrael.

I do not own the picture.

“Dear souls on earth who volunteered to share their light and love with all in these times of transformation. You came here for an important mission and this is a mission of true honor and love for humanity and all lifes creation. You came here to bring balance in that which is imbalanced within yourself. You came to change your perceptions, your thoughts, your behavior and beliefsystems. You are the ones that volunteered to come and change the old into the new. You are the ones that wanted to be the first to create a change and therefore you are the ones who experience these emotions and changes the heaviest within yourself. When the masculine and féminine energies are being brought in harmony the old way of thinking and feeling must make way for the new to come in. Light cannot take place as long as there is a belief of seperation within yourself. In agreement with your soul you are now ready to receive your own light more into yourself and therefore you are releasing core beliefsystems that no longer are in alignment with the new frequencies. You are now given the opportunity to start believing a new story about yourself, one that you can create yourself and one that can be aligned with who you are as a soul. When the beliefsystems are being cleared you can be overwhelmed with sadness, grief and fear. You might feel hopelessness and no way out but this is because leaving behind a part of something that has been in yourself for so long is painful. You are grieving for your whole bloodline and reliving their pain and their desperation. You chose to transform these fears not only for yourself but also for the future generation. You have a great mission here on earth and you do not need to underestimate the work that you are doing right now even if you feel like you are not doing enough or not contributing to helping others. We are all watching over you and we are all supporting you through your most painful moments. The time of seperation is over but you are in transformation right now for something bigger and something that is in alignment with your soul. I am Azrael and I am with you on this path.”

Dark elf: soul aspect drawing

This is a drawing of my aspect as a dark elf. For a very long time there has been a war between the light and the dark elves where the whole elemental realm was involved. There is a history and story that awaits to be told about it which I hope to share it with you all some day.

There was deep surpressed anger that I have been feeling and this something that I have had all my life. Every time I felt injustice was done, every time I felt I needed to follow somebody else’s rules without seeing the value or point of it I would feel it inside and I a feeling of rage would come up. It is a feeling of being locked up and taken my freedom away and not being heard, not being allowed to voice my truth made me feel less than what I was.
We take on memories and trauma from other lifetimes and other dimensions to release in this lifetime. This was a memory of injustice being done to me as a dark elf. He felt that what happened was unjustified because his kind was banished to the underworld even though they did not do anything wrong. In this life I have a strong connection to the elven and elemental realm. I connected to this aspect and I was able to release and heal this pain. All this aspect needed is acceptance and being heard. Your shadow awaits for you to be acknowledged and to be seen. It doesn’t want to be pushed away or to be labeled as something wrong or evil. When you bring love into this side of yours you will bring balance in yourself which will allow you to use the power of the dark aspect in unity with the light. You will thrive from this unity as you will be able to use your power truly as intended without any fear. No fear for the darkness any longer when you hold love for all that you are.

Embracing love fully by accepting and integrating your own dark aspects

I have been working on accepting parts of myself that I don’t like and have felt ashamed of. I didn’t acknowledge them as a part of my being and how I was created. I realized I wanted to fit into a certain image thinking that I need to be a certain way to be accepted. We all want to fit in and have a sense of belonging and loved by the people that we love too.

I have say that I did not realize I felt this way. This was something that I was unaware of but it was dwelling in my subconsciousness. Lately I have been feeling a little down emotionally and my guides told me that I needed to believe in love in all its imperfections. Love isn’t about only loving the good side, it is also about loving the ugly side. And until I love my own ugly side I can’t fully embrace what love is in all its glory. Because love doesn’t choose what it loves, it just does. So I made the decision to embrace what I thought was wrong about me. I completely opened myself up to love all my flaws because they too are a creation of the Universe and hold unconditional love. I felt a strong urge to draw my dark aspect.. She will help me to integrate all of what I do not love about myself and did not want to see. She might be my dark aspect, but she is me and I fully embrace it with love. I am sharing this drawing and message with you and I hope you too can accept all of who you are.. The good, the bad and the ugly.

Her name is Audarian and this is her message:

“Integration of your own aspects aren’t only those of the light side of your soul. In order to be in balance you must also accept your shadow side. By facing your own fears and by looking at the emotions and traits you don’t like about yourself you will be able to love yourself fully because you can only feel the wholeness within yourself when you embrace ALL of your aspects: those that you love and those that you don’t.
Take a deeper look into yourself and ask yourself what it is that you don’t like about yourself. What are you ashamed of? Do you feel guilt or do you feel jealousy? Do you feel shame? How do you feel about your sexuality, have you been promiscuous? Have you betrayed others? Have you cheated? Have you lied? Have you manipulated others to get your way?
It easy to see what others have done unto you but it takes courage and awareness to see that you too have done what has been done on to you. Life is a circle, all what you are currently experiencing in your life you have gone through in another lifetime doing on to others.
Every soul that chooses to incarnate has at some point misused the power they were given in previous lifetimes, but also in this lifetime. Experiences always go both way: one time you are the villain and the other time you are the victim. One time you are a Saint and the other time you are a sinner. In order for you to see yourself as Love you also need to see that every experience that you have had as a human being came from a place of love. This means that every painful act that you have caused and have gone through was created so that you could see and feel the love even deeper than ever before. Now in this lifetime you are given the opportunity to see that even in pain there is love. This requires for you to accept that there is in fact no duality in love because darkness is a part of love. It is a part of the wholeness within you. Darkness and light are not seperate: they are One. This is a truth that exists in each and one of you. When you are ready to accept that your own darkness is in fact love too you will feel wholeness, acceptance, peace, joy and freedom in every aspect of your life. Nothing from the outside will scare you because you will know the truth that light and darkness are in perfect balance within yourself. Shadows are not to be feared, they are to be accepted as a part of your existence. You were created in the image of perfection and this consists of ALL that you are.”

Finding balance in yourself and following your inner guidance

This is a commissioned drawing shared with approval.

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“To find the freedom that you are looking in your life starts off with feeling the balance in who you are. When you fall into extremes of emotions then you do not see and feel your true potential and what gifts that you posses. Now that you are moving deeper into awareness and into your heart you will start to feel the truth, your ultimate truth, in the core of your being. This feeling will give you a sense of stability, you will feel like a rock and a like the support that you have been looking for outside of yourself in the past. In this time you will be able to feel this support and balance within yourself. Although you will still fall into certain emotions you will now be able to process them more quickly and with a different awareness than even last year. As you are changing and evolving you will see that the only thing that stopping you were the illusions that were created outside of yourself because inside you already know it all. Can you now feel the truth and the power in the center of your being? Can you see the light shining from your heart? When we look at you this is how we all see you. To us you are all shining and now you are becoming ready to see this about yourself. You won’t need validation and proof from others that you are indeed on the right path. Now you will start to see it for yourself. Even when you don’t believe it with your mind, your heart now will speak louder than your thoughts and you will be able to hear it because you will FEEL it more and more in your being. Notice how now you hear and see more with your heart instead with your phyiscal senses. This also means that your intuition is heightened and that you are getting clear signs on which way to go on your path. Trust these. Trust that feeling in the center of your body, this is Source, this is you, now you know there is no difference. Trust all of this, dear ones, and it will never fail you.”

AA Aurora on being in the divine flow and stepping out of the man made structure of security

This is a commissioned drawing shared with approval.

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”My dearest all. How I love you dearly and cherish you all. Today I come forth with the message of hope and how it is all right to be who you came here to be. The way to truly experience who you are is to be in the present moment and to fully focus your attention and time on yourself for this is what is the most important. All things lie in this moment. There is no other time then there is now. As you are moving forward in your growth and as you are intergrating more of your essence you will feel the power in being fully present and aware of the moment you are living in. You will see how making decisions far ahead and planning out your future will not work anymore because you will feel how time is something that is flexible and future events are created in the present moment. Now this is hard for you to understand but the old way of thinking and of thinking ahead will change as you will see the value of following your heart in any direction that it leads you. This is something that changes frequently and can happen rapidly so you will not be able to foresee all and to calculate all your steps too far ahead. You are not supposed to do this anymore and many of you will feel a push forward now that you are becoming more aware and more open to receiving the higher frequencies.

You are opening up to experience the divine flow more with ease, dear ones. In the realm where we reside there is nothing else but ease and the constant flow of divine energy. You too will start to feel this, it will feel wonderful but at the same time you will experience resistance as your ego will try to keep you in a safe place and it will convince you that you need structure and security to ensure your well-being. Become aware of these thoughts and old programming and choose to follow your heart.

Be brave, dear ones, so do not step into the illusion that you do not have a free will and that you have to be submissive to structure that is created by man. You are divine and you have a divine will that is following the law of the Universe which is nothing less than perfect, no structure can be compared to that of which exists of endless possibilities and countless stars. You too are stars and you hold the energy and the frequency of just that. Remember this as you choose to follow your path in this life. We are with you, I am with you, I love you infinitely.”