Judgement towards ourselves

I have felt anger the past few days and judgement towards myself. Heavy emotions that are coming up and I feel pressure inside. I received this message from my higher self when I asked for clarity. At this moment we are going all the way back to Lemuria:

“Because we feel we are not good enough and are not doing well enough , because we want to prove ourselves, because we feel we need to be further than we are right now on our path we are experiencing pressure from within and we suppress our beingness and the qualities that we have. We want to push further and move forward but because we cannot be in the moment and let go we cannot step into our joy and therefore also into abundance. The pressure within to prove ourselves and our worth is too great. We want to show that we are doing the right thing, that we mean well and that we really have good intentions towards others. We no longer look inside but focus on the outside and we judge ourselves on the basis of achieved results and this is where we see failure. We have achieved nothing and we have no evidence of our intentions. This is why we get mad at ourselves and why we feel anger. The intention is there but the outcome has failed, we think.
This is the same thing that happened in Lemuria: the intention was pure but the results failed. There was only chaos and disorder visible through the peaceful and loving actions to the outside. It was not enough to be kind and to be loving. We could no longer remain in our truth and see that the purity of the heart cannot fail. We have lost ourselves in the outer world and have allowed the external chaos to affect our purity. We could not go inside anymore and were forced to see what we had done. We were torn from our truth and we still feel this in our lives right now.

However, the purity of the heart has never disappeared, not even when Lemuria went down. It was time, it was the way it should be. The predictions were there, it was known. The Lemurians knew but could not accept the truth. It is time to face the truth: the purity in the Lemurian heart has never disappeared. Look inside and see your truth. See what you were unable to see then. Go back to your core and see that the truth is greater than the actions from outside. Untouched and unharmed, this is who you are inside.”

Dark elf: soul aspect drawing

This is a drawing of my aspect as a dark elf. For a very long time there has been a war between the light and the dark elves where the whole elemental realm was involved. There is a history and story that awaits to be told about it which I hope to share it with you all some day.

There was deep surpressed anger that I have been feeling and this something that I have had all my life. Every time I felt injustice was done, every time I felt I needed to follow somebody else’s rules without seeing the value or point of it I would feel it inside and I a feeling of rage would come up. It is a feeling of being locked up and taken my freedom away and not being heard, not being allowed to voice my truth made me feel less than what I was.
We take on memories and trauma from other lifetimes and other dimensions to release in this lifetime. This was a memory of injustice being done to me as a dark elf. He felt that what happened was unjustified because his kind was banished to the underworld even though they did not do anything wrong. In this life I have a strong connection to the elven and elemental realm. I connected to this aspect and I was able to release and heal this pain. All this aspect needed is acceptance and being heard. Your shadow awaits for you to be acknowledged and to be seen. It doesn’t want to be pushed away or to be labeled as something wrong or evil. When you bring love into this side of yours you will bring balance in yourself which will allow you to use the power of the dark aspect in unity with the light. You will thrive from this unity as you will be able to use your power truly as intended without any fear. No fear for the darkness any longer when you hold love for all that you are.