Energetic update: Lack of money / survival energy

Last week I have felt a struggle for survival within me. I have always had this energy in me which prevented me to fully trust and let go of financial worry. I have felt the urge to keep the battle for money going and I NEED to make sure I was safe and provided for so I pushed myself very hard which caused me to experience a lack thereof. 
There came a point where I got really tired of it and I told the Universe I was done fighting and struggling and that I was ready to surrender, I realized and I felt I couldn’t control anything and I expressed that I was done with it and I was ready to let come to me whatever came my way without forcing anything.
The night after that I felt anxiety and I couldn’t sleep all night, I was in fear to let go of worry and control. This was the masculine energy within me that was in fear of having trust.

Anisha Ana has received important information from Spirit and an explanation to why we all feel this:

“Every person has a belief that they are not going to have enough money. This is something that is programmed deep in our DNA. That is why we attract and experience a lack of financial means or no money at all. What you feel in yourself you send out to the universe : “the law of attraction”.
During my meditation I received information regarding this. It was said that the collective financial situation (lack of money) is a very serious problem. I have noticed that even though people have money they are afraid of not having enough. So it’s not about actually having the money but about feeling it.

I will briefly explain about Lemuria because this deep rooted issue is directly connected with Lemuria. Lemurians have allowed low vibrational beings to enter Lemuria because they had no home. But what happened was that a low consciousness cannot feel or grasp of what heart connection is at all. All that matters for a low consciousness is what they can see with their eyes, there is no deeper connection. There are only superficial perspectives and acts. What they showed me is that these beings have mixed with lemurians and they had children together. Which makes that the connection they had gradually faded because they were no longer pure but mixed with other low vibrational beings that had the DNA coding of unconscious, animal, instinctive, survival beings. These beings have absolutely no connection with their heart or higher self / soul. Now we still carry these energies within us, but what strikes me is that it is the man within us who is bothered by it. The man in us provides the money, the man in us feels guilty and crawls into a corner because it makes him feel ashamed. He still remembers what these energies did and what caused it. Every time I go into my inner man I feel how he is frightened about money matters. The man within must urgently become whole again. Love from the woman within must bring the man healing. I now often hear that it is said that people can no longer bear that they are so deeply in financial trouble. Becoming aware of this is the first important step. It has nothing to do with who you are or how show yourself. First become aware of this inside. Allow healing to happen: express that you open yourself up to allow healing. Punishing oneself because these energies have caused the fall of Lemuria is deeply ingrained within our DNA and everyone carries it within. 
Say to yourself that this is what has happened and that it is enough right now. The man within us no longer needs to suffer as a result. We are done with it. The earth can now heal through us. Because we are Gaia, our body is Gaia, she gave our body to come and heal here on earth what still lives deep inside her and what was once destroyed. To open up an intimate woman to an inner man and vice versa is to open the kundalini fire in yourself. Let life energy flow in these old DNA codes so that these may heal for good. Renewing these cells is what we come to do here.”

Judgement towards ourselves

I have felt anger the past few days and judgement towards myself. Heavy emotions that are coming up and I feel pressure inside. I received this message from my higher self when I asked for clarity. At this moment we are going all the way back to Lemuria:

“Because we feel we are not good enough and are not doing well enough , because we want to prove ourselves, because we feel we need to be further than we are right now on our path we are experiencing pressure from within and we suppress our beingness and the qualities that we have. We want to push further and move forward but because we cannot be in the moment and let go we cannot step into our joy and therefore also into abundance. The pressure within to prove ourselves and our worth is too great. We want to show that we are doing the right thing, that we mean well and that we really have good intentions towards others. We no longer look inside but focus on the outside and we judge ourselves on the basis of achieved results and this is where we see failure. We have achieved nothing and we have no evidence of our intentions. This is why we get mad at ourselves and why we feel anger. The intention is there but the outcome has failed, we think.
This is the same thing that happened in Lemuria: the intention was pure but the results failed. There was only chaos and disorder visible through the peaceful and loving actions to the outside. It was not enough to be kind and to be loving. We could no longer remain in our truth and see that the purity of the heart cannot fail. We have lost ourselves in the outer world and have allowed the external chaos to affect our purity. We could not go inside anymore and were forced to see what we had done. We were torn from our truth and we still feel this in our lives right now.

However, the purity of the heart has never disappeared, not even when Lemuria went down. It was time, it was the way it should be. The predictions were there, it was known. The Lemurians knew but could not accept the truth. It is time to face the truth: the purity in the Lemurian heart has never disappeared. Look inside and see your truth. See what you were unable to see then. Go back to your core and see that the truth is greater than the actions from outside. Untouched and unharmed, this is who you are inside.”